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Wednesday, 29 December 2010

Jealousy Is So Lousy...

Honestly, i am feelin a lil bit jealous of somethin i cant control....but its not a negative feelin, since it doesnt make me into a destructive one. The feelin makes me do somethin better, like forgeting the problems and moving on with my life *denial.mode* i believe, like love, every emotion is worth it on their own way. I will have to enjoy it, as much as i glorified the love that caused me this jealousy.
Like my Love keeps on saying, "Jealousy is petty," and pettiness is not something that we hope for in life.

Tuesday, 28 December 2010

Cant Iron Out For Others

Future is something that all of us cant know clearly. Even though we know Sight-sayers, Fortunetellers, Oracles, Shaman, Indigo's people or whatever is the terminology, they do not know the real future in the whole aspects. There are something that they cant cover. But somehow though we are not one of those predicate, actually we can still 'read' what the future will bring to us, from all the clues, signs, facts and stories that happens surround us. Its not something mystic or supra natural things, just a comprehension toward the things that come to us. Very hoccus to poccus kiddooo.
And lately i have a big question to ponder inside my "lovely brain*" and later i will explain bout my brain ya....

The question is quite simple, if we can "read" future with all the facts, clues, nuances and everything surround us, can we apply those knowledge to us and to give some insights for others? Can we share it for others' advantages? And can we make them "follow" what we are assuming is the right one? Based on what reasons we think that we are right in choosing the path for them? By doing those are we showing our arrogance to the lesser ones? But as a social person, don't we have a strike to help others, and due to that reason shouldn't they "accept" our suggestions though it might sound like pushing them to the edge with it lol.

And with all those knowledge above that we have, from the "reading" that we made and the love that we hold for others, we cant still plan their future, since every body has a right to make their own bed. Basically, its not bout what you know to avoid disaster for others and how to iron out others' people live, but how strong is our bond with those people to let them create their own mistakes in life.

Friday, 24 December 2010

Just Dont Leave Nee, Puhleazzzz!

To be left is something that i all kind of relationships, i always start it with trepidations of being left alone. In Runaway's Bride - Julia Roberts, is having the same problem whenever she has romantic's entailments, but for me, its done for all kind of relationships. Those thinkings are blocking my prayers since i do believe that actualy good results are the manifest of good prayers in which its also the influence of positive thinkings. So no wonder i am still alone though never lonely, thanks God.
But since we are talking bout me myself, i wont rip and trash myself sooooo deep lol. Because i do believe that everything is happening for a good cause. And those people that i left behind actualy are not mine to be owned for whatever is the purpose. Though sometimes i just hope that someday, one day, i am strong enough in saying my commitments and believe enough with them.
So, in almost all paces of my live, i do pray to The Big Guy, "Just lemme find their faults before they leave me when they find out they cant be with me in the future. For it will shatter me into pieces." and since no one is without left me with a bitter taste somehow.

Friday, 17 December 2010

Music vs Musac

Mood - Bouncing like a ball
Music - The playlist with Joanna Wang, Susan Wong and Sabrina
Place - On the green chair

Music and muzac are something that cant be separated in my life. I may not be the next Jean Michelle Jerre nor Kitaro the guru of music, but i am good in deciding a good music, at least for my own ears lol.
Playing music do release my stress and pressure in life though i havent touched my instrument since a decade ago hehehe.....but dont get wrong idea, i can play music, i can find the notations, and i even joined a marching band. They put me in charge to play Bellira, an instrument thats quite simple for talented musician, but oh noooot for nee. A simple march notations in a song can be changed into a requiem lol. So thats the end of my career as a musician, though music is in my blood, i will let those talented people to do it, before many people jump to the river just to avoid my horrible music lol.

Music vs Musac - Annoying Habit

Like i said, music is in my blood, so definitely muzac also. I do create muzac in my own surrounding by humming incoherently songs that i ever heard ages ago. These habits are quite "annoying" some people since my music are not from their era *grinning evilly*.
Though i am not planning on irking some one or many people, but the facts are still there, i am annoying them with my off tune hum lol.
What can i say guys....i do love to hum, bear with me will you and dont throw me out from our window when i rattle your nerves with my oldies hum rotflol.

Music vs Musac

In my job, i do know how to read people from their voice and intonation in speaking. Its pretty easy to do it since basicaly each person has their personality shown in their voice. Each voice will represent kind of music in their life. I dont mean that the voice is showing the person's preference in music, nooooo, its just like this. Each voice represent a music/tone to my ears. Some tones/musics are acceptable for my ears, in which the meaning is that i can face the person, and some are sooooo bothersome that from the voice, the music that i decipher is making me stress.
I can avoid many distressfull effect due to my learning of people's voices. Do it in your own life, it might help you from trouble in understanding people. But beware with a sacharine notes/voices, believe me, since they just pretend to be nice just to hide their venoms.

Monday, 22 November 2010

Motif Batik Tradisional

Parang Rusak
The motif above is what Javanesse called Parang Rusak. Parang Rusak in the old time  was including one of the sacred motif in Batik.Mayhap it is due to the date of the invention, since this is one of the oldest motif in Batik. This type of motif was considered sacred and important because only noble people allowed to wear this motif and also in a special occassion such as the ceremonial events, welcoming the guests, saluting the Senopati* from their winning in a war, and many important events that made this motif as the sacred once.Those noble people were the palace's members, Sri Sultan Hamengku Buwono VI and Susuhanan Paku Buwono XII.

This motif itself  was derided from the natural ambiances in Yogya and Surakarta* if you see it closely you can trace the repetition of letter S in this motif from above to the below part. Now lets dwell with the history of this motif.
Nowadays Parang Rusak is being colored in various colors.

Parang in Javanesse language is a stout straight knife used in Indonesia and Malaysia, but in this context Parang is from the word Pereng, that has a meaning as a hill. Perengan is picturing as a declining line from the peak point to the lowest point diagonally. And those S letters are being intertwined repeatedly to represent the harmony and synchronisation. The letter of S is taken from the form of the waves on the sea which in the end is representing the undying spirit.

But nowadays all of us can wear it freely and for any occassion, though in marriage ceremony most of the single youngsters will wear it as their Kain*. This motif has also been applied in more modern ways including experiencing the modifications, stilation or even combining with other motifs like what we can see above is one of my private collection for this motif and it has been changed from the serious motif into the cheerfull ones, like nee lol.

Do remember that this motif is representing happiness, spiritfull, undying effort, and many good meanings. But it could also be used as a hope from a parent toward their kids to continue the glory and succeed of the family.

Notes - I compile the words above from these links below, do not hesitate to holler at me to translate them in English though it is in the simplest way lol

Saturday, 13 November 2010

Dealing With My Feelins

Mood - Exuberant
Music - The Way "Cake"
Background - In the corner of my mind

Somehow dealings with my feelings are more difficult than any other things i ever faced.
And the wars are not ended till the fat lady is singing....whoever the lady is, since its definitely not me lol.

Wednesday, 10 November 2010

We Are Different Due To A Good Reason

Today once again my Rabb showed me how to see the beauty in disguise though at this moment, believe me, i still cant find the beauty of it *cackling evilly*.
In an open forum like a meeting where we can see each character of the people, we will be able to see the differences between those people including myself. Its like seeing a drama rolls on the stage in front of me. A drama without a script, a director, and those clutters in a production.
Within an open and free stage where all the players and audiences have equal powers in deciding how to lead the story to the end. The meeting is being held formally for the beginning 5-10 minutes. But since its a production, a drama, after sometime the real players will start to show their true scripts, the scripts that all of us human kind have since the day we are born.
No wonder in those time we will be able to see those people start to play their roles. There will be a jester, a trouble maker, a rebellion, a double-faced, and many other characters that even we will not realize their occurrence until we stumble upon them in our path.
Those creepy scripts that will be represented by some characters that all of us might not realize them to be exist, might be something that others cant accept, but those scripts or characters are needed to equalize this lovely world.
Come back to my little drama, i see how a character tries belittling others even before there is something to be belittled about. While other character tries to stay ignorance till the drama is closed. In the corner there is a character that its job is to oppose all things. In the other corner a character is dividing people's attentions. The characters in my drama are so colorful but believe me, live is never so dull with those characters.
Those characters give edgy feeling in my life. Just like having a cold ice tea. I bet it will be better taste if you put some dollops of lime on it. Just to give a tangy taste. Those are the jobs of my colorful characters, give a bitter and tangy taste in my life. They really are different due to a good reason.